mea culpa

January 31, 2006

Hmmm, First post of the year, first post in long months. Feels strange…
Been a while. I’m not entirely sure of the reasons, but I haven’t had the bitter need to write lately. I suspect it’s because I am content and in a different place than I was a year or so ago when I started this thing, but I’ve always written/journaled to some extent. It’s a good trade, I suppose, having happiness and a feeling that things are going well, but I find myself missing the need and the act to put pen to paper, keyboard to whatever. I like the act, the accomplishment, even if it we (both of you) know that this is about as much of an accomplishment as is doing the dishes. I guess it’s also safe to admit that the older I get and the more I read other blogs, it becomes apparent that this is for me – no reason for anyone else to read it. Mea culpa.

Dr. Pat moved in with me officially this weekend. She has quickly become the most important thing in my life, and feel so lucky to have her here with me on a full-time basis, although in all honesty she’s been here pretty much since we got together. So wonderful to want to be with someone all of the time. Even though I was married, for all practical intents and purposes I lived alone, and was even ok with it, I guess…? Still, it is a first for me to want to be with someone all of the time, to need to connect with her during the day, feel privileged to see her first thing upon waking, and to be glad to see her walk in the door each evening. Anyway, I ramble. Know that it just feels right, and I am happier than I have been in a long while.

We spent the holidays near Seattle, at the base of the Olympic Peninsula in Washington, with her folks and sisters. Such lovely people. So much like my family in demeanor and ease, and I look forward to the joining of the tribes. I guess that this is what it all comes down to – a union of family and friends and lives. I’m looking forward to the rest of the story.

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